I just need
one more time to see,
one more time to hold,
one more time for you.
I just need to tell
how I don't hate,
how I still love,
how I much I
would miss you.
I just want
one more glance at,
one more chance with,
one more day for you.
one more time to see,
one more time to hold,
one more time for you.
I just need to tell
how I don't hate,
how I still love,
how I much I
would miss you.
I just want
one more glance at,
one more chance with,
one more day for you.
"Both sets of eyes, though different far, hold many mysteries strange.
Impassively they watch the race of man decay and change.
Hatred burning bright in the brown eyes, with enemies for fuel,
Icy scorn glitters in the grey eyes, contemptuous and cruel."
Impassively they watch the race of man decay and change.
Hatred burning bright in the brown eyes, with enemies for fuel,
Icy scorn glitters in the grey eyes, contemptuous and cruel."
1953, April 18 (Sat). The entry for April 18 shows the spending of hours out of doors at night. There are a number of references in the diary to nocturnal activities in the garden at Ilam. ~ From Medlicott's testimony
Found in Hillary Nathan's (once Pauline Parker) house in Kent, South East England. Amongst a large mural of similar paintings done by Nathan herself around 60 years after the murder of Honora. This particular image clearly shows two young girls, one brunette, the other blonde (much like Juliet and Pauline) being engulfed into flames. This is how Pauline had occasionally referred to hers and Juliet's relationship in her teenage diary entries.
The fact that this mural was found in her home (where she lived alone) recognises the fact that some 60 years after the murder, Hillary (Pauline) still resents being torn away from Juliet (now Anne Perry) and has not forgotten the fantasy and closeness their relationship had.
The fact that this mural was found in her home (where she lived alone) recognises the fact that some 60 years after the murder, Hillary (Pauline) still resents being torn away from Juliet (now Anne Perry) and has not forgotten the fantasy and closeness their relationship had.
1953, May 15 (Fri). "Mrs Hulme told me they had found out today that Juliet has tuberculosis on one lung. Poor Giulietta! It is only now I realise how fond I am of her. I nearly fainted when I heard. I had a terrible job not to cry. It would be wonderful if I could get tuberculosis, too."
The character attachment to Juliet is shown partly through this quote.
(left) Pauline seen at Christchurch Girls High School. hated PE, loved Art and English. Quite typically a tomboy and not often involved in class discussions. Her class of 3A was where she met Juliet Hulme.
(right) Pauline Parker on the day of the court case -22nd June 1954.
(right) Pauline Parker on the day of the court case -22nd June 1954.
Just from the two above photos, the contrast of Pauline's eye contact could suggest that while she remains stubbornly shy, after she has committed the murder, she has become more aggressive and less passive. This could be through the built up relationship between her and Juliet from the time they met, till the time of the murder. I think that Pauline relies heavily on Juliet for confidence and direction.
"We Were Not Lesbians'
Anne Perry talks of her teenage relationship with Pauline Parker
1953, May 29 (Fri). "...a girl who sat at the same table as us in a milkbar [said] how beautifully I spoke English, that I almost had an Oxford accent, what a refreshing change it was, and several other very pleasing things..." ~Pauline Parker diary entry
1953, late September, a Thursday. Pauline and Nicholas attempt to have sex but halt because it is too painful for Pauline.
~Medlicott's court statements.
(above) The strong attachment Pauline has with the Hulme family. Evidence such as her April 23rd diary entry suggests Pauline has accepted Hilda Hulme as her own Mother. This longing for a different socio-economic lifestyle may have drove Pauline to the point of wanting her own Mother dead so badly.
The diary entry for May 15th proves the dependance Pauline has on Juliet and how she would give up so much to be with her or to keep her happy. strong attachment Pauline has with the Hulme family. Evidence such as her April 23rd diary entry suggests Pauline has accepted Hilda Hulme as her own Mother. This longing for a different socio-economic lifestyle may have drove Pauline to the point of wanting her own Mother dead so badly.
The diary entry for May 15th proves the dependance Pauline has on Juliet and how she would give up so much to be with her or to keep her happy.
The diary entry for May 15th proves the dependance Pauline has on Juliet and how she would give up so much to be with her or to keep her happy. strong attachment Pauline has with the Hulme family. Evidence such as her April 23rd diary entry suggests Pauline has accepted Hilda Hulme as her own Mother. This longing for a different socio-economic lifestyle may have drove Pauline to the point of wanting her own Mother dead so badly.
The diary entry for May 15th proves the dependance Pauline has on Juliet and how she would give up so much to be with her or to keep her happy.